so....>>>>

so boring......
so blurred.......
my head so pain.....
so scared.........
so hate.........
so worry........
so ..........
i really dun understand....\
why when someone had did lots of things and cause everybody hate he/she but then he/she still can be so lucky and ....
haiz...><
why??
some one who pasting mask on their face is really difficult to guess what they thinking and what's they going to do next.........
and then they still can be so lucky and got everything they want....
and then after they got what they want,need to come and ask us: d u got ??no ar??so ....
talks like very pity....huh
i wondering no more honest people in this society again??
or those really dissappointed and then getting and getting deep into the way to pasting their mask??

Splash Water day!!

14 April was the Splash Water Festival(I think) in Thailand ,so my family and I went there that day….

We departed from our home almost 8 in the morning and arrived there at about 9.45

When we just arrived the town, the police there were on duty in early.

The traffic police stand in front of the roundabout and gave order about car’s moving because there were too many cars there.

Mostly came to experience the festival.

When we having our breakfirst,we meet 2 family from our place. They were came for the festival too. All of us in wear of casual:a simple t-shirt and a short pants.(preparing for wet)^^haha!!

Then, we just walk around the town. The festival haven’t start. But we can saw that lots of the streets’ hawker started promote their things: water pistol. Children asking their dad to buy the pistol. I think the hawker can make much profits on that day.

At about 10.30,the festival started.

First, what we saw were a huge number of people walked in the middle of street wearing beach clothes. They were prepared for wet. Then the people beside the street started to sprinkle water towards them.

After a while, I can saw that the streets became so “crazy”.

The youth sit on a lorry and then with a pistol or anything which can sprinkle the water,they started to splash water to verybody they saw. The pity one was those who sit on motorcycle. They were attacked because they will totally wetted. I cant said that they were pity because….they were quite enjoyed when wetted.

The crazier one was some of them use the coloured powder mixed with the water and splashed to everyone and every car. Some put the powder on their face and tried to do the same to others.

I was a bit wetted when I walk through the street. A chinese girl saw that I’m not wetted and she just take up a plastic pipe and sprinkle water to me!! Luckily I ran as fast as I could because the water was coloured !!

And then there were battle at the roads!!

When a lorry with youth meet with another lorry with youth also,they will started battle with splashed water to each other…the streets was filled with screaming and “high” shrieking!!

For me,the most pity one was the police because they were on their duty but the crazy one splash water to them also and put the powder on their face…

How can they do that as the police were cared the safety of them from being injured with vehicles….the armed soldier and police were patrolled all the times to make sure that the safety of country is in control….i’m quite respect them because although the peoples done such to them and also needed to patrol under the hot sun but they still doing their duty well…*V*

We then walked into a shops for escaped from wetted more serious, meanwhile bought some junk food. We bought peanuts of 3 flavour,nuts produced by Thailand(forgot its name), mango,durian cakes,coconut cakes and others with unknown names.

At about 2 in the afternoon, we went for lunch at a restaurant on a hill. We ordered a seafood tomyam, a coconut milk seafood, a “kangkung” with sambal and a papaya salad.

Taste great!! But honestly its too little for 5 peoples to eat!!

After that,we departed to hot spring in Thailand. At there, we bought a packet of “em chun dan” ,it’s an egg of a type of birds. We put it in a place where specific for tourist to boil the eggs. After 15 minutes,the eggs were boiled. The water of that corner was boiling every seconds. So, don’t play play …haha^^

Then ,we went to another place with water which quite hot also but acceptable by human skin. My sisters and I put our legs in. Quite hot but after a while,it just like warm. I heard that this water can improve the circulation of our blood.

After an hour and 30 minutes there, we back to the town and loitering with ….car of course! When we past a place,if there were peoples stand by there to splash the water, we move in slow motion for them to splash us!!haha!! Some of them not really dare to splash us. Maybe they saw our car board number and knowed that we were tourist,then they scared to be so crazy gua…haha!!

In this short tour,I found that the residens there were really crazy that day. Even police they also didn’t scared to splash water to them. In short,this tour was really incredible and amazing!! It showed me that every country got their own special festival….the splash water festival maybe is one of their new year celebration(I think)…If got chance you all must go there once!!

Deepest tranquility in heart !!

Yesterday, the Sin Chew Plus set a title named “linden tree” at page 4 & 5.

Its about deep meditation and in Chinese,we called it “禅” .

I wanted to share it here bcoz I found out that the content was really meaningful. Page 4 was about a female artist named Brigittelin (林青霞)，a Hong Kong artist who went for deep meditation 8 years ago. She said that after the 3days meditation with master’s convinced,she felt appreciate to the world and understood an admonition during a situation: face it,accept it,handle it and put it down.

As for me,after reading her experience,I got a new clue about facing our life. Let past by past.

Every time when I suffered about something,I’ll prayed to Buddha. Hope for a guide on solving or else prayed for reducing of my scared and helpless. Maybe people will say that praying cant improve the condition but at least I found a balance and tranquilities in my heart. With this,then I could think out ways to solve a problem with a calm heart and mind.Flowers does make me getting calm and relax...the flower in above picture is one of my favourite flower named Gypsophila elegans Bieb(满天星).

Every night before I fall asleep,I prayed to Buddha to make tomorrows better,give me courages and determination to face problems. I prayed that my family and my friends happy and live in peace.

The page 5(written by sheng yan rabbi) states that self-cultivation is important for people nowadays especially those who always compete with time. It states that sit in meditation half an hour a day is not a waste of time. Instead, it may improve the efficiency of work bcoz a hurry hours make our mind always hurry and cant make up a suitable decisions.

But if you try to sit in meditation just 30 minutes a day,you will find out that its WORTH for our SOUL!!!

back to my working place!!!

Wow!! Today in the noon,i go and find my friend to go for KFC!!
We got chat lots of thg about studies...
If she cant got the teachers training programme,then will go for f6.....
Normally at ipoh la.....but which sch???still blurred......
n then me,waiting for inform letters.....if really cant got anythg,then akui the nasib and go for f6 lo!
After the eats,i go to the place which i have been work there 4 last 3 months(cant write here 4 reason).....
When just move in few steps,i got saw my 2nd kei jie at downstair.....i know y she there coz there is the opening of fair....so she is quite busy......chatting with her 4 quite a long time.....haha...she is busy but chatting with me about somethg interesting happened....
Hehe!!The guy that v all hated cried the day b4 i go there....coz none of promoter wanna wrote the cashbill 4 him....n him as a person who take much much more salary than promoter(like this u all know that his place) dunno how to write the cashbill,then cried??!!
Oh my god!!
I really want to see him crying......
A big man cry just bcoz of dunno how to write a cashbill,he's a "office man"leh...that mean he works in the office,but v all assume that he just sit n shake his legs inside there only....haha^^
Then i go upstair to find my 1st kei jie...
We have lots of chats bout our recently doing matters!!!
Her boyfriend come gerik 2morow leh....
But cant meet them....
Anyway,when again i back to there as a customer,the feelings are totally different ....
At least no need guarded my the guard everydays .....they just guarded the promoter of xxx department de...not fair!!
Luckily i have resign ....

why???

i really dont understand....
why people can change after years and years although we have know he or she for a long time especially those who are our family....
why someone can speak something that hurt others so much??
have he or she think about other's feeling when heard this words??
when everybody sure that its was his or her fault,but he/she really dont realise that its really his/her fault...
why!!!
i really angry and disappointed....
but what can i do??
i just can keep it in my heart because i dont want others to know about this.....
he/she hurts everyone who heard his/her words....
how can he/she said like this!!
its really hurt....the hurt is direct go thoroughly to the heart...
i'm really crying for that for about the whole night...
i just told this matter to my "kei jie" because i really want to speak it out....
its very terrible to keep it in my heart....
i really wishing n hope that the same thing would not happens again....
i dont want to see the person that i care and love crying ownself in her room.....
and i just cant do anything.....i dont know how to facing this situation....
i'm just 17....why???