我讨厌我自己...
那种无可自拔的感觉又回来了...
明明1年多过了，也试着...就因为那一天...
haha....我真的不应该再去想有的没的了...注定，果然在他字典才有...
不应该再打扰自己的思绪...
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Monday, January 3, 2011
riPPles in lifE....
there's been almost 1 year the ripples almost get out from my life when i connected to u....
i dun like the ripples because it disturb me....
it disturb my sight, my mind, my smile, everything....
i should know that its quite impossible since u ald misunderstood the target from the beginning....
i dindnt post out any post since that and now,i'm bac.....
i hope this ripples may ful-fil and in deep of my heart i know that its quite impossible....
yet,i feel that i'm stupid and i'm nothing to u..........
i dun like the ripples because it disturb me....
it disturb my sight, my mind, my smile, everything....
i should know that its quite impossible since u ald misunderstood the target from the beginning....
i dindnt post out any post since that and now,i'm bac.....
i hope this ripples may ful-fil and in deep of my heart i know that its quite impossible....
yet,i feel that i'm stupid and i'm nothing to u..........
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Tagged by ling fei!!^^
What did you do in 2008 which you've never done before?
Worked as a promoter,went for form6 at st.michael, went in KMPK(Perak Matriculation), outing with friends, invite friend to stay at my house, become a bit crazy....haha
Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I hope that everyone that I know will be haPPy for the whole year and may evryone's dreams come true!! I will work hard to achieve my target....
Did anyone close to you gave birth?
My aunt
Did anyone close to you die?
Nope
What countries did you visit?
Thailand,Singapore...........
What would you like to have in 2009 which you lacked in 2008?
Hardworking,determination,braveness.....
What date in 2008 will remain etched in your memory, and why?
26th May(entered matrics),24th October(my birthday),and others that i cant mentioned them out now
Wat was your biggest achievement of the year?
Emm,dont know
What was your biggest failure?
Playful
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yup,serious food poisoning in matrics till cant walk....
What was the best thing you bought?
Shoes??Shirts??Nope
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Emm,no idea....
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I depressed??sometimes but cant category as depressed because normally just for a moment only
Where did most of your money go?
Food!!haha
What did you really, really, really get excited about?
Knew many friends that I appreciated so much!!
What song will remind you of 2008?
Westlife's If I Let U Go
Compared to last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
Sadder more about 15%
b) thinner of fatter?
sure fatter!!very obvious
c) richer or poorer?
cant think bout it coz my money from my parents
What do you wish you've done more of?
Exercise more,study more,hardworking more!!
What do you wish you've done less of?
Sleep,eat,play...
Did you fall in love in 2008?
Is that fall in love??I oso dont know
What was your favorite TV program?
Too much!!
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope
What was the best book you've read?
Emmm....cant remember the title
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lee hom's music...hoho
What did you want and get?
Nothing
What did you want and not get?
4 flat
What was your favorite film this year?
No idea also....haha
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
18th,my friends gave me a great surprise during study week
What was the one thing that made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Knew more people and learned new thingss
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Normal and simple
What kept you sane?
.................
What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
lee hom and calvin from fahrenheit
What political issue stirred you the most?
The lost of quite many places of BN
Who did you miss?
My mum!!
Who was the new best person you met?
Everyone that I meet
Tell us a valuable lesson you learnt in 2008:
Try everything and be brave for your purpose....Never give up easily and dont be lazy
TAG:
haha,lazy 2 tag others already
Worked as a promoter,went for form6 at st.michael, went in KMPK(Perak Matriculation), outing with friends, invite friend to stay at my house, become a bit crazy....haha
Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I hope that everyone that I know will be haPPy for the whole year and may evryone's dreams come true!! I will work hard to achieve my target....
Did anyone close to you gave birth?
My aunt
Did anyone close to you die?
Nope
What countries did you visit?
Thailand,Singapore...........
What would you like to have in 2009 which you lacked in 2008?
Hardworking,determination,braveness.....
What date in 2008 will remain etched in your memory, and why?
26th May(entered matrics),24th October(my birthday),and others that i cant mentioned them out now
Wat was your biggest achievement of the year?
Emm,dont know
What was your biggest failure?
Playful
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yup,serious food poisoning in matrics till cant walk....
What was the best thing you bought?
Shoes??Shirts??Nope
Whose behavior merited celebration?
Emm,no idea....
Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I depressed??sometimes but cant category as depressed because normally just for a moment only
Where did most of your money go?
Food!!haha
What did you really, really, really get excited about?
Knew many friends that I appreciated so much!!
What song will remind you of 2008?
Westlife's If I Let U Go
Compared to last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder?
Sadder more about 15%
b) thinner of fatter?
sure fatter!!very obvious
c) richer or poorer?
cant think bout it coz my money from my parents
What do you wish you've done more of?
Exercise more,study more,hardworking more!!
What do you wish you've done less of?
Sleep,eat,play...
Did you fall in love in 2008?
Is that fall in love??I oso dont know
What was your favorite TV program?
Too much!!
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Nope
What was the best book you've read?
Emmm....cant remember the title
What was your greatest musical discovery?
Lee hom's music...hoho
What did you want and get?
Nothing
What did you want and not get?
4 flat
What was your favorite film this year?
No idea also....haha
What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
18th,my friends gave me a great surprise during study week
What was the one thing that made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Knew more people and learned new thingss
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Normal and simple
What kept you sane?
.................
What celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
lee hom and calvin from fahrenheit
What political issue stirred you the most?
The lost of quite many places of BN
Who did you miss?
My mum!!
Who was the new best person you met?
Everyone that I meet
Tell us a valuable lesson you learnt in 2008:
Try everything and be brave for your purpose....Never give up easily and dont be lazy
TAG:
haha,lazy 2 tag others already
Sunday, December 28, 2008
taGGed by liNg fEi!!
01. what is the most important thing in your life?
Family,friends and my dearest ppl which will appeared sooner and sooner....
02. what is the last thing you bought with your own money?
Char kuew tiao at night market.....
03. where do you wish to get married?
Havent think about it for now....
04. how old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover?
Emm,depends on fate...haha
05 are you in love?
Those who understand me,nt now already......
06. where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
A reataurant at my place....
07. name the latest book you bought?
Perhaps my references books i think
08. what is your full name?
Chiah Hui Lin
09. do you prefer mother or father?
Mother....
10. name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time?
Calvin Chen,haha
11. christina or britney?
Emm,nope.......
12. do you do your own laundry?
Yup,absolutely!!
13. the most exciting place you want to go?
Paris and Greece........
14. hugs or kisses?
A bit grEEd,both!!^^
15. point out five things about the person who tagged you
~Cute
~Sweet
~Buddy in KMPK
~Serious
~Responsible
16. eight things i’m passionate about
*listen to music
*eat
*watching movie o drama
*play badminton and basketball
*play chinese chess
*read novels
*dance,haha(unbelievable?)
*coloring something
17. eight books i have read recently
~mathematic reference book
~biology reference book
~chemistry lecture note book
~mathematic tutorial book
~distionary
~i think thats all for recent
18. eight songs i’ve been listening over and over again
*lee hom (forever love)
*lee hom (only 1)
*SHE (sky grey)
*A mei (i want haPPiness)
*JJ (zhi dui ni shuo)
*JJ (yi qian nian yi hou)
*JJ (jian jian dan dan)
*JJ (qi dai ai)
19. eight things i learned this year
~Friendship
~Hardworking
~Serious
~Love from different sides
~Challenge
~Appreciate
~Miss
~Dun trust others easily
20. persons you tag
*Jeromefo
*Ashley
Family,friends and my dearest ppl which will appeared sooner and sooner....
02. what is the last thing you bought with your own money?
Char kuew tiao at night market.....
03. where do you wish to get married?
Havent think about it for now....
04. how old do you think you will get permanently owned by your lover?
Emm,depends on fate...haha
05 are you in love?
Those who understand me,nt now already......
06. where was the last restaurant you had dinner at?
A reataurant at my place....
07. name the latest book you bought?
Perhaps my references books i think
08. what is your full name?
Chiah Hui Lin
09. do you prefer mother or father?
Mother....
10. name a person that you really wish to meet in your real life for the first time?
Calvin Chen,haha
11. christina or britney?
Emm,nope.......
12. do you do your own laundry?
Yup,absolutely!!
13. the most exciting place you want to go?
Paris and Greece........
14. hugs or kisses?
A bit grEEd,both!!^^
15. point out five things about the person who tagged you
~Cute
~Sweet
~Buddy in KMPK
~Serious
~Responsible
16. eight things i’m passionate about
*listen to music
*eat
*watching movie o drama
*play badminton and basketball
*play chinese chess
*read novels
*dance,haha(unbelievable?)
*coloring something
17. eight books i have read recently
~mathematic reference book
~biology reference book
~chemistry lecture note book
~mathematic tutorial book
~distionary
~i think thats all for recent
18. eight songs i’ve been listening over and over again
*lee hom (forever love)
*lee hom (only 1)
*SHE (sky grey)
*A mei (i want haPPiness)
*JJ (zhi dui ni shuo)
*JJ (yi qian nian yi hou)
*JJ (jian jian dan dan)
*JJ (qi dai ai)
19. eight things i learned this year
~Friendship
~Hardworking
~Serious
~Love from different sides
~Challenge
~Appreciate
~Miss
~Dun trust others easily
20. persons you tag
*Jeromefo
*Ashley
Saturday, December 27, 2008
hoLidAy!!!
soRRy ya...
finaLLy I back home...
miSS my home so much coz last time didnt back during rAyA...
i went zhiling's house 4 holiday at Penang.........
then there was UNGA , a celebration of culture of different country....
there were exhibition and show.......
my recent lecture hall gt theme country:JAPAN...
the exhibition is nice enough but the show got a bit bored and troubled due to some technical error caused by certain people that dont want us to show.....
during that particular week,i join paint ball game with my frens and we won.....
cOOl!!
feel like wanna play it again.....
it was really adventurous and fun!!!
with shOOting and hide skiLLs all together........
haha......
emm,last wEEk i went outing with my frens at matrics to celebrate junsin's 18th birthday.....
a surprise for her.....
1st we just like normal outing....
den we watched a latest movie titled BOLT...
cOOl,fuNNy and touching oso....
i gt drop my tears,haha....
its a nice movie.......
and then we went shopping separately,kangli and i went to bought card and cake.....
at 2.30,all of us wait a food court except kangli and i pretend late coz we brought the cake and need to assure where the others sat...
then,i went and pretend i shopping separately with kangli while kangli wait at down floor...
after that,i said wanna went find her and both of us prepare the cake with candles with word HAPPY BIRTHDAY on it....
then its a celebration ceremony lo..........
our present was a MILK TEDDY wallet........
dat day also chinese DONG ZHI festival.....
my fren,zhuoying brought me few tangyuan from her frens....
so touch when i ate the tangyuan because i thought cant ate it till i back......
somemore the tangyuan not bad,shocked by it was made by boys....cool
on wednesday,finally,during the x'mas eve,i back my dear home....
no...
should be said that back on x'mas day coz reached at around 1o'clock in the morning in dark...
haha..........
santa claus still havent give me my dreamed present........
but nevemind,i will wait patiently until the "present" appear one day.........
the day after that i went to cut my hair till short......
long time already since standard i never cut my hair that short..........
feel relieve..........
emm,i think thats all for this time........
going out to celebrate with my frens.........
finaLLy I back home...
miSS my home so much coz last time didnt back during rAyA...
i went zhiling's house 4 holiday at Penang.........
then there was UNGA , a celebration of culture of different country....
there were exhibition and show.......
my recent lecture hall gt theme country:JAPAN...
the exhibition is nice enough but the show got a bit bored and troubled due to some technical error caused by certain people that dont want us to show.....
during that particular week,i join paint ball game with my frens and we won.....
cOOl!!
feel like wanna play it again.....
it was really adventurous and fun!!!
with shOOting and hide skiLLs all together........
haha......
emm,last wEEk i went outing with my frens at matrics to celebrate junsin's 18th birthday.....
a surprise for her.....
1st we just like normal outing....
den we watched a latest movie titled BOLT...
cOOl,fuNNy and touching oso....
i gt drop my tears,haha....
its a nice movie.......
and then we went shopping separately,kangli and i went to bought card and cake.....
at 2.30,all of us wait a food court except kangli and i pretend late coz we brought the cake and need to assure where the others sat...
then,i went and pretend i shopping separately with kangli while kangli wait at down floor...
after that,i said wanna went find her and both of us prepare the cake with candles with word HAPPY BIRTHDAY on it....
then its a celebration ceremony lo..........
our present was a MILK TEDDY wallet........
dat day also chinese DONG ZHI festival.....
my fren,zhuoying brought me few tangyuan from her frens....
so touch when i ate the tangyuan because i thought cant ate it till i back......
somemore the tangyuan not bad,shocked by it was made by boys....cool
on wednesday,finally,during the x'mas eve,i back my dear home....
no...
should be said that back on x'mas day coz reached at around 1o'clock in the morning in dark...
haha..........
santa claus still havent give me my dreamed present........
but nevemind,i will wait patiently until the "present" appear one day.........
the day after that i went to cut my hair till short......
long time already since standard i never cut my hair that short..........
feel relieve..........
emm,i think thats all for this time........
going out to celebrate with my frens.........
Thursday, November 20, 2008
assignments!!
this weeks i got lots of assignments waiting me to be done.........
english survey,biology assignment,and loads of tutorial works......
sometimes feel that the atmosphere is stiffing....
but anyway,i will try my best to finish all.....
haha....
this weekend i'm going to watch movie again with my friends.........
we are watching 3 drama actually..
japanese "hua yang shao nian shao nv", taiwanese "bu liang xiao hua" and hong kong's "yu di tong hang"........
cool...!!!
i entered new lecturer hall and new tutorial class....
there are totally 3 chinese including myself..........
huh.....
the new lecturer hall is damn cold.....sometimes cant concentrate.......
although now i have a fixed lecturer hall,but its cold inside there..........
and i miss all my frens in t46.......
but what can we do???
all become the fact already.......
juat can adapt myself with new environment and classmates........
english survey,biology assignment,and loads of tutorial works......
sometimes feel that the atmosphere is stiffing....
but anyway,i will try my best to finish all.....
haha....
this weekend i'm going to watch movie again with my friends.........
we are watching 3 drama actually..
japanese "hua yang shao nian shao nv", taiwanese "bu liang xiao hua" and hong kong's "yu di tong hang"........
cool...!!!
i entered new lecturer hall and new tutorial class....
there are totally 3 chinese including myself..........
huh.....
the new lecturer hall is damn cold.....sometimes cant concentrate.......
although now i have a fixed lecturer hall,but its cold inside there..........
and i miss all my frens in t46.......
but what can we do???
all become the fact already.......
juat can adapt myself with new environment and classmates........
Sunday, November 2, 2008
sem break!!!
Finally,sem I finish already......
And now I'm enjoying holiday at home....
Actually its nothing special because I got MUET test this coming Saturday.....
I would like to thank all my dear friends and roommates in KMPK because of giving me an unforegetable 18th birthday inside there....
The day before my birthday,one of my indian roommate,Visha going back to KL to celebrate Deepavali....
So I guess that maybe they wont celebrate for me.....
The surprise thing is suddenly lingfei called me....
She said that she wanted back her chemistry notes that I borrowed from her before....
And I never doubt anything....I just bring the notes went down to her hostel at another block.....
When she saw me,she asked something about my Muet test because I took my Muet speaking test that day....
So I just told her eerything.....
And she said I tired came down from 4th floor,so she said lets chat more for a while....
I just felt a little bit weird because she acts like abnormal.......
But I just cover it by think that maybe she wanted to relax after study pauns of books....
After a while,she said she wanted went up,so we dismiss and I went up back to my room lo....
And I saw Visha standing outside,I thought she wanted to back already....
When she saw me,she asked:why you back so fast???
And I answered:I chatted there for a while already...is it fast??
Then she asked me to open the door using my key because according to her,another 2 roommates leave her outside cz they jealous she can go back home....
Once I opened the door,oh no!!!
There's balloons and cake and card in front of me!!!
Then only I realise that they "pakat" with lingfei already...............
Its a big surprise for me....
Somemore the laptop is stand by there to take my photo...haha
haPPy!!!^^
The night before my birthday,actually I am waiting for the time to approach 12o'clock and my friends' message also.....
Quite stupid.....haha
But I do that thing,then when time pass by,only ling fei wish me......
All my dear junior and friends that knowed before entered matrics wish me already......
But I feel something lost in my heart because no one except lingfei wish me.....
Around 1 o'clock,zhuoying and laiteng wish me....
But their wishes as simple as possible,somemore they mention sorry for late coz busying final.....
I guess it already.....
The next day.....I'm in bad mood........
During lunch time,I meet zhiling.....
She so cool until not much reaction when she saw me....
That time I felt more down..........
I went tutorial class to study with my roommate,CT......
She was quite weird that day....
She keep on borrow my handphone and said that she wanted to bluetooth songs.....
Then she asked name of my lecturer hall's boys name......
I felt weird but I never doubt anything...........
Then,she went mini market to buy ice-cream..........
After she back,her action more weird but still I cant understand..........
She backed room after that,leave me alone.........
Suddenly,I receive kangli's message and she asked whether want go dinner together or not that night...........
I just said depends because I'm still full that time...............
When I back room,Ct scolded me because I bought a burger back room and she said she wait for me to go down and buy food together.............
Then i told kangli that I need to accompany Ct down there and buy food first....
The weird thing is she said she went down together with me................
Actually,that time I guess something will happen down there already but I dont know what they going to do...........
When I reach there,oh my god!!!
All my friends were there!!
Zhiling,lingfei,laiteng,zhuoying,junsin,chiangsan,weibin,yeheng n siew chung.......
That time only I realise that actually they "pakat" already...........
I'm quite surprise...............
With a big tiramisu cake,and a special card they done for me with everyone's signature,and a special slide show......
Haha....I'm so haPPy that time............
I thought nobody remember my birthday....
But they really gave me a big surprise........
Then only I knowed that zhiling actually quite shocked when she saw me during lunch time because the cake just there and she scared I will doubt something.........
And kangli explained all the weird things before this to me...........
For example like few days before that she havent change class clothes even its night time.......
haha......
I want to say "THANK YOU" to all my dear friends and roommates for giving me such a meanigful birthday celebration because no anyone give me such a surprise during my birthday.....
Thanks thanks thanks a lot for you all!!
Love you all so much!!
It will become one of my sweet memory in KMPK!!!
And now I'm enjoying holiday at home....
Actually its nothing special because I got MUET test this coming Saturday.....
I would like to thank all my dear friends and roommates in KMPK because of giving me an unforegetable 18th birthday inside there....
The day before my birthday,one of my indian roommate,Visha going back to KL to celebrate Deepavali....
So I guess that maybe they wont celebrate for me.....
The surprise thing is suddenly lingfei called me....
She said that she wanted back her chemistry notes that I borrowed from her before....
And I never doubt anything....I just bring the notes went down to her hostel at another block.....
When she saw me,she asked something about my Muet test because I took my Muet speaking test that day....
So I just told her eerything.....
And she said I tired came down from 4th floor,so she said lets chat more for a while....
I just felt a little bit weird because she acts like abnormal.......
But I just cover it by think that maybe she wanted to relax after study pauns of books....
After a while,she said she wanted went up,so we dismiss and I went up back to my room lo....
And I saw Visha standing outside,I thought she wanted to back already....
When she saw me,she asked:why you back so fast???
And I answered:I chatted there for a while already...is it fast??
Then she asked me to open the door using my key because according to her,another 2 roommates leave her outside cz they jealous she can go back home....
Once I opened the door,oh no!!!
There's balloons and cake and card in front of me!!!
Then only I realise that they "pakat" with lingfei already...............
Its a big surprise for me....
Somemore the laptop is stand by there to take my photo...haha
haPPy!!!^^
The night before my birthday,actually I am waiting for the time to approach 12o'clock and my friends' message also.....
Quite stupid.....haha
But I do that thing,then when time pass by,only ling fei wish me......
All my dear junior and friends that knowed before entered matrics wish me already......
But I feel something lost in my heart because no one except lingfei wish me.....
Around 1 o'clock,zhuoying and laiteng wish me....
But their wishes as simple as possible,somemore they mention sorry for late coz busying final.....
I guess it already.....
The next day.....I'm in bad mood........
During lunch time,I meet zhiling.....
She so cool until not much reaction when she saw me....
That time I felt more down..........
I went tutorial class to study with my roommate,CT......
She was quite weird that day....
She keep on borrow my handphone and said that she wanted to bluetooth songs.....
Then she asked name of my lecturer hall's boys name......
I felt weird but I never doubt anything...........
Then,she went mini market to buy ice-cream..........
After she back,her action more weird but still I cant understand..........
She backed room after that,leave me alone.........
Suddenly,I receive kangli's message and she asked whether want go dinner together or not that night...........
I just said depends because I'm still full that time...............
When I back room,Ct scolded me because I bought a burger back room and she said she wait for me to go down and buy food together.............
Then i told kangli that I need to accompany Ct down there and buy food first....
The weird thing is she said she went down together with me................
Actually,that time I guess something will happen down there already but I dont know what they going to do...........
When I reach there,oh my god!!!
All my friends were there!!
Zhiling,lingfei,laiteng,zhuoying,junsin,chiangsan,weibin,yeheng n siew chung.......
That time only I realise that actually they "pakat" already...........
I'm quite surprise...............
With a big tiramisu cake,and a special card they done for me with everyone's signature,and a special slide show......
Haha....I'm so haPPy that time............
I thought nobody remember my birthday....
But they really gave me a big surprise........
Then only I knowed that zhiling actually quite shocked when she saw me during lunch time because the cake just there and she scared I will doubt something.........
And kangli explained all the weird things before this to me...........
For example like few days before that she havent change class clothes even its night time.......
haha......
I want to say "THANK YOU" to all my dear friends and roommates for giving me such a meanigful birthday celebration because no anyone give me such a surprise during my birthday.....
Thanks thanks thanks a lot for you all!!
Love you all so much!!
It will become one of my sweet memory in KMPK!!!
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