1st day in f6!!

Today is the first day I put my feet onto another way for further studies...
I'm a bit disappointed when I checked out that i didnt got the JPA..
But nevermind,I already had a prepare in my heart that I wont got it because its really competitive!!
So,I move to Form 6 today!!
I registered at the school today with my friend and we just stayed there and listen the "dead" orientation seminar...
Its really bored........
And then a female teacher gave us the form to fill for the transfer of school....
I'm started wondering.....
Its need to fill in 2 choices for our wanted school...
The first :St.Michael??Sam Tet??
The second: Sam Tet??St.Michael??
I'm wondering which one do I need to write first...!?
And then the address...everybody confusing on this...
Nobody teach us to fill the form although there's wrote the tittle...
But then we are still wondering and ....WONDERING!!
At last,I wrote the St.Michael at the first choices and Sam Tet for the second choice...
I hope I will get the offer as I'm a bit disappointed didnt got the matrics and also the JPA..sigh!!@_@
After that,we got informed that the original offer letter is needed for proceed on the transfer...
But then we have gave to the students who in-charged of registered just now....
So reasonally we wanted it back from the teacher but finally we get the letter back after a mountain of effort..
huh...went here...went there...
wasting our time...
And then about my tuition ...
So ....feeling so "wu nai" with it...
I wanna go for it but its a wave and wave of trouble coming to me...
huh...
sometimes,feeling like i'm useless...
Cant do any decision on vital matters.....
Cares for this...Cares for that....
its just like contradiction in myself.....
And last,maybe my decision was a stupid decision....
I also dont know why i will become like this,....